August 3rd, 2006 03:50 am (UTC)
I find religion problematical
I do have intermittent what might be spiritual feelings (what counts for "strong" emotion in my weird sense of self), but I get caught up when deciding if I'm atheist or vaguely theist because from what evidence I can see from comparative religion readings / culture / biology / history, god, if there is a god/gods -- s/he's either not very powerful, or He's functionally sexist.
I'm saying this as a woman in menopause, had several annoying hot flashes plus spotting. I'm very grumpy at my body right now! Then there's all the Jane Crow laws, anti-choice, and Motherhood propaganda ...
I've got a good internet connection at work so I was able to listen to a couple speeches from a Sojourner conference while I was doing not-difficult copy cataloging today. The speakers were Jim Wallis (sp?) and Obama (my jr. senator). This would have been the pro-religion-in-public speech kneejerk were ranting about because of selected quoting.
I'm feeling strange at the moment. I've got the webcites saved on my work computer and I'll probably listen again. Both speeches were very moving, sincere, serious, social justice religious speaking. And they wanted to put poverty front and center -- we must obey the overwhelming biblical priority[?] -- and, yet, I get agrivated at the notion that believing in god is a necessary motivator for effective social justice.
OOH, I *could* do more (I want to do more), OTOH, it would mean much more support for the wage slaves of the world if I could help force even one BigBusiness Evildee & Evildum to pay the same tithe toward social justice as I do. I'm tired income gap getting wider and wider as the superrich buy legislation to funnel more funds/labor/resouces into the top 0.1% while the middle class, through forced taxes or voluntary giving, helps the people the superrich don't care about, and gets pushed down toward poverty ...
Most of the social justice famous heroes point to God as a motivator ... or, at least, that's what the religious say. It's hard to argue with Martin Luther King.
God & female biology. Mother Nature has given human females a handicap -- we're liable to pregnancy, etc. etc. We *can't* be equal without reproductive choice. Even then, all the centuries of servatude ...
My sister-in-law speaks about what God means for his children ... and she accepts gender roles. Mother Nature is into gender roles in a big way. Sometimes I think god, if there is a god ... s/he's not a personal god. It's about the most good for the most people, and gender roles make that more "efficient"? The forbidden fruit from the Tree of Knowledge ... I think self-awareness throws a wrench into the works. The best I understand the religious writings I've read, the sincere religious, those doing the hard work rather than not-wanting-to-think-mega-church-followers -- their losing their "self", the mystics. If god's working on an aggregate level -- the glory of life and nature and all that -- that's not on a personal level. How could s/he relate to an individual unless that individual is thinking on a higher plane, not personal?
But, well, no, I didn't every want to be pregnant. I don't want god or a community to interfer with a woman or girl's reproductive choices. If that's not what god wants, then I'm in rebellion. But I'll go along with the temporal goals of social justice.